To say the past few months have been hard would be the understatement of the century. Since I last left you, several things have happened, all of which I can't quite consider to be the greatest.
My health has been yo-yoing and doesn't seem to stand still enough for me to enjoy a reprieve. Of course I still have my good days, my goodish days, and my not-so-good days, but I'd like a few weeks of good and goodish days instead of two good days, a bad day, a goodish day, several bad days, and so on.
It's quite exhausting these days trying to keep up with my own body!
With Fall drawing near, I can't help but wonder if my continual ups and downs are just an early relapse, especially now that we're getting closer and closer to it hitting Fall and the days seem to be more bad than good.
Lately the worst has been my draining fatigue, insomnia, and pain. Oh dear, how much pain I'm in on a constant basis! The unfortunate part of that is pain medications don't work for me so I have to suffer through it. A lot of crying and swearing has been involved. In fact, I just tried Percocet the doctor prescribed me this past Sunday and I'm JUST now getting over the migraine it caused, four days later. Needless to say we will not be doing that again.
I've been dealing with applying for social security for the past two years and early this year I sought out a lawyer when I received my third denial. They've been doing their best to help me and after a year of waiting I was out to lunch with my mom when I got the call: a date was finally set! For August 5th which, then, two weeks away.
Fast forward to a week before the court date and I received another phone call, this time letting me know there was a scheduling conflict and my hearing had been pushed back. To October 28th. I thought I'd be more frustrated than I was but I realized there's no point in getting my knickers in a knot, upsetting myself, and ultimately putting myself into more pain; I've waited nearly 2 years, I can wait 3 more months.
I've been going to myofascial therapy twice a week for the past several months but I haven't seen much of a difference, good or bad. I'm going to finish up the appointments that I've booked through August and hopefully by then we can find an acupuncturist that is in network, which I've been wanting to do for at least a year or two.
Essentially you know things are bad when you end up stopping blogging and working because of said things. I have several things backed up and am crazily adding more to the list but I'm hoping things will look up and if not, that I can push through at least some of this.
In the mean time, I'm still plugging away. One day at a time and all that jazz.