Thursday, April 3, 2014

Health Update Thursday(4/3)

Here we are again! Pull up a chair, grab a cup of coffee, a power smoothie, or a glass of water and get ready to read all about the trials and tribulations of moi.

Eh, I'm used to all the trials and tribulations by now so let's just call it what it truly is: the life of moi!

Quite honestly, even with all my health ups and downs over the past 10+ years I can't complain at all. I'm really lucky to have what I have and be where I am at at this point in my life. I often find myself comparing where I am at to that of my friends and people my age and I'm not going to lie, I feel very inadequate.

My friends and piers have graduated college and have degrees, are going back to school to get more education, or have full-fledged careers. A lot are married and have one, two, or even three kids. Several of my friends are currently pregnant, getting married, and are buying houses. Compared to all of that, I don't feel like I've gotten anywhere or accomplished anything with my life since I graduated high school 5 years ago.

Then I (or someone else I love) bring myself back to reality-we each have our own journeys to travel and neither one is more or less important than the other. I've survived chronic illness. I've built two businesses and a website from the ground up. I have a loving family, a wonderful boyfriend, and the best bunch of friends I could have ever asked for.

Regardless of my health situation, knowing I've accomplished all of that and have those things in my life will forever make my heart smile and my soul soar!

Now back to my current health situation. The past couple of weeks have been really rough. Thankfully I've been able to function minus the week or so I was in bed due to terrible pain. Things are starting to look better but my body is still suffering moderate daily joint and muscle pain and I'm starting to slip back into my insomnia phase.

The one thing that has been a constant the past month has been the incredible soul crushing fatigue. It's gotten to the point where I just want to cry because I'm Just. So. Tired ALL the time!

Spring has sprung (mostly) here in Illinois and I'm definitely feeling the allergen affects-headaches, sneezing, and every morning I wake up nearly blind for about 10 minutes because my eyes are stinging, itchy, and watering like crazy.

I'm lucky I can actually get out of the house and do things but, unlike last year, there is no planning. If I'm feeling good that day or at that moment, I push myself. Even if I'm dragging I still push myself because I never know when the next time I'll be able to go out is. I'm careful not to push myself past that invisible line from pushing to overdoing it; it seems I'm getting better at telling exactly where that invisible line lies.

Other then that I'm just taking it day by day. I'm hoping I can actually sleep tonight so I can get up early and go to breakfast with my boyfriend! Wish me luck *crosses fingers*


XmasDolly said...

My poor sweetheart. My heart aches for you, and overjoys on your good days. How I wish they could find a happy medium for you. I love reading your Posts that are so up, but at the same time I'm so down for you when you are so down! Here I am we finally found out what's wrong with me, and the right pill and everything, and here we cannot afford the medicine & I'm totally out & I too am back in bed. I HATE THIS. So I'm with my laptop laying down trying to make money on line to get medicine & praying my husband lands a job with one of his two interviews this morning. :( HEALING HUGS MY DEAREST CM

Colette S said...

Everyone has their own pace in life darhling and indeed you have accomplished so many things already, but it's in our hearts to always want more and to grow. Don't feel bad about that.

Glad you are doing okay despite your battles.

here's to you and Spring adventures!

Maryann D. said...

I know a few people with chronic illnesses that cannot even be diagnosed properly and they can't get the right help either. So I do know it is not easy living like that. They also try to keep positive like you, so be proud of your accomplishments and enjoy the days when you are feeling well.
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Unknown said...

I agree that everyone journey is different and comparing to our peers in just not fair! I hope you will be able to sleep! Are you able to take anything for it? Melatonin stopped working for Gabriel but he loves his white sound machine. Have you tried one?